Thank You!

I finally got someone on the phone who doesn't hate their life or their job... Far too often am I "greeted" by these miserable souls who don't have an ounce of kindness left in them. And for them, I wish that today doesn't suck.

The end.

Proud Momma

My son just melts my heart... I tell ya, I look into those big brown eyes, and I know I've already lost!

He had his Awards Day yesterday, and (of course) I teared up... I'm just so proud of the little man he's becoming!!

I was glad they were giving each child a certificate of completion for Kindergarten {no one would feel left out} - but then my boy got an additional award for Art. Love it! How fitting is that in this family?!. 

Today is my daughter's big day (Awards). Her teacher has already told me she recommends she be in the gifted program, so I'm sort of expecting she will get an award of some sort. It would break my heart is she didn't get anything... but it would also tug on the ole heartstrings if she receives more awards than her brother. Is it wrong of me to wish for her to get the same number of awards?? 

I fear this will always be a struggle for me... I want so badly for everything to be "fair" and even with them - which, no, I'm not naive enough to think life will actually work out that way. I realize it's beyond my control.

I know they both have their own strengths. It just kills me when they say things like, "I'm not smart like Gabi" - which my son told me the other day. {tug} I reminded him that he's only in Kindergarten and he's still learning - plus, Little Miss Know It All has two years of school on him.

That didn't seem to help his self-esteem much... but I don't really know what will. I hope receiving an Art Award will push him to develop his creativity (yes, I know, he's only 6).

Let me interject: I don't want to be one of "those" moms either... living through my child. Creativity and The Arts have just always been a big part of our family.

At any rate, I'm a proud momma, and I have some amazing angels in my life!

Update: The Goob got two awards, as well. {whew}

idiot

I had intended on writing a completely different rant, but when in the moment: What do you do??

What

do

you

do

?

When I say I'm over people, I don't mean I'm over EVERYONE - just ignorant people. And, yes, I'm using my own personal definition of the word as my guide.

And, for the record, if you think this post is about You, then odds are, you're probably right. 

No, you may not have been what fueled it this time... But there's a good chance you have in the past (or you will in the future). And you probably need someone to tell you that you're an idiot, too. 

YOU'RE AN IDIOT.

I'm actually doing you a favor. I mean, how on Earth will you know otherwise?? 

Everyone else has probably told you your whole life that you're right - or has at least appeased your way of thinking, in turn making you think you have a clue in your brain. 

But I'm here to tell you... You don't.

And, no, I can't tell you why you're an idiot. I'd like to throw out a "I guess you were just born that way" - but that's probably not true. Not completely. 

It's not your fault. I don't blame you - not for that, at least.

I'm sure it has been ingrained in you your whole life, and you know no different. What I do "blame" you for (for lack of a better word) is continuing to be ignorant.

idiot.

If I have to pretend I fit into the small-minded mold that is You in order to gain your friendship, then I feel for you... Deep inside, yours must truly be a lonely soul. Because no one - NO ONE - will ever be enough to enrich your life. Not your spouse. Not your children. Not even your own mother. There isn't one single being that believes exactly as you do, but you would rather close the door on anything that is "different" than exhaust yourself by seeing the good.

I realize it's a daunting task to step outside Yourself and find value in those that were not cloned from your essence. Like I said, you were probably conditioned Not To.

Just know that in barricading yourself, we all lose. 

Religion & Politics : Can't Talk About That

I'm sure I'm considered Anti-American for not wanting to celebrate the death of another soul; however, it's the {generalizing here} typical American mindset that I'm against. I don't think being an American makes me superior to anyone, any more than I think being a particular color or faith does.

Yes, I'm grateful for the freedom that has been afforded me and the intention of those that lost their lives in the pursuit of that freedom. Do I condone the methods in which it was brought about, though? No.

[You] want to preach at me:  Explain to me how hatred and violence are going to end hatred and violence...?

I'm all ears and eyes.

{crickets}

"Hate begets hate; violence begets violence; toughness begets a greater toughness. We must meet the forces of hate with the power of love...Our aim must never be to defeat or humiliate..., but to win his friendship and understanding." — Martin Luther King, Jr.

I know MLKJ wasn't speaking about terrorism - at least not in the same sense - but I believe these words are applicable.

What do people presume will happen now? America has shown its power and terrorists everywhere will bow down at "our" feet? Sounds unlikely to me.

I also find it ironic that the same people who were posting "He is risen" as their status update on Easter morning are the same ones posting "YAY! he is dead" today. This way of thinking only reaffirms my aversion of and belief that religion is becoming (and/or probably has been) more and more of a "Do as I Say; Not as I Do" doctrine.

I really hope that spiritual/religious leaders will remind their congregations of their convictions this week.